hate this year xmas
though i got bf but i have never celebrate with him before
last year xmas was canceled due to an accident
this year didn't meet up cos he was with his friends

by seeing what i'm typing now, it's normal to feel that he care about his friends more than me
this is also how i feel
he asked me to go over to meet him
don't he think is too late?
like i mean you already forgotten something in the first place and you try to repay later
is like meaningless
even if i go over i won't be happy
cos you are already happy even without me now
so you still expect me to go over?

totally damn disappointed

i swear next year xmas i'm not going to celebrate with you first
i swear i will put my friends in the first place
though i know you will still be happy without me
not going to waste my xmas on you again

i really thank god that i still got my friends to accompany me during xmas
elated that actually we did used 15min to buy an impromptu xmas present for exchange
this is what jac wrote for me
so sweet
even my bf didn't do this for me
i didn't receive any gift from him
not sure if i'm his gf or his friends are his gf
not going to say anymore
disappointed is the only word that describes